alhamdulillah

In solitude I look at life at different angles. Enough will never satisfy even though we're earning millions. Starting to push away family, friends and the one who been by your side when you're are at the most low as ground zero. You may not aware of the changes around you but when someone come to you and say: "Hey, i think you're abit off the hook" and you go: "Well, I think you're just jealous of what I am today" but deep inside you get hit and you start to think back where this all came from? For a fact, money is not everything, attention is irritating and now your humbleness means nothing. Partying, chasing money and material things, flying high thinking nobody going to clip your wings. Well, I don't care about your money or how slick your car is cause no matter how rich and big you are It's still Allahuakbar! You're lying to yourself knowing that you've been neglecting your responsibilities as a healthy Muslim. Maybe when you lost everything you start to search high and low for this thing called Sejadah that you left it lying under your bed when you feel like you on top of the world back then.

Here's a lil somthing you can say when you sit down on the sejadah to pray:

Wait, who am I to advise you cause I've not been the best Of God's slaves, it just my thoughts says. A lil house, simple life and I hope for a simple sweet girl, Alhamdulillah and I'll try to slow it down on the cheap thrills.

Sometimes I wish that I was born again so I can rectify mistakes, my wrong doings and try to minimise my sins before my story end. I'm not trying to sound as a holy man but if I tried to be a better person now I probably can. This post will probably create a little controversy but I'm not even trying to preach here but by sharing thoughts I hope to find a little peace here. So please, when I lost my way in future or I'm starting neglating everyone and everything do come to me and say:

The most important thing, don't forget to say Alhamdulillah!

1205, the figure that will always be remembered. Maybe some of you wondering what's that figure is all about. It's a date, marked a special day for this two lovers back then. Let go back to memory lane on how 1205 get it's name "DIAS 1205". It all started during the school days at Bishan ITE back in 2003 when I don't know shit about love. I never had a GF before and I have no professional training on how to go over to a girl and say: " hi! Boleh kenal-kenal?". I was all busy with my b-boying with BFC that time and I have no intention to explore the world of BGR.

Until that very day, this girl, my classmate, she got me locked down. She was sweet, tall and nice. We became friends, close friends and eventually we became lovers. My tactics to get close to her, gosh it was stupid. I say to her after school:

Diki: Eh, nari aku alek tampiness ah umah sedare aku. Kite naik bus same2 k.

She: asal tak naik train aje gie sane?

Diki: errr... sal aku nak naik bus 168 ah kat seletar camp. tu lagi dekat (the bus she took drop by at seletar camp)

She: hmmm.. ok lah.

But actually, my motive is just to go back with her on the bus she took and after I alighted at seletar camp I took another bus back home but not to tampiness as what I told her earlier. How lame I can be!

So as time goes by, we became more closer. On 12 May 2003, Monday, with a little courage I force myself to ask her out and I did it! Coincidentally, we wear the same colour top, same colour sandals and jeans. I was like, Ok.... After we walk around Hougang Mall she decided to chill at this residential park and so we sat down and chilled. That's when she knows that I'm going to ask her something which going to change our lives. I keep on delay-daley untill she say:

I was like, come on Diki. Go! go! The clock strike 6.30 and I got to say what I got to say! Yes! I did it! She hold my hand and I was jumping around with joy. That's how 1205 came about. But unfortunately "DIAS 1205" didn't last. It all end at the ending of 2005. It was sad indeed. Today marked the 5 years Anniversary of DIAS 1205 and it may not be a special day anymore but it will always be remembered.