Something bothering me lately. A disturbing one. Have you ever felt scared I mean very very scared till your clothes is soaking wet with your sweat after you wake up from a dream? And then you say "Astarafirallahhalazim" Well I did. It happened quite sometime ago as I choose not to disclose this disturbing yet detailed dream of mine to anyone. I did talk about it with a couple of friends. Even my friend freak out when he heard the dream that I had. He goes: "eh sial lah". I think I should share this dream of mine cause I don't want to get carried away with it as it is just a dream afterall and so it goes like this:

Have you ever had a dream at night that is so detailed, so clear as if you're watching close to a High Definition flat screen TV with a VERY CLEAR ENDING? For what I know, through out the dreams I had never once it have a ending to the story. So it all start me lying out of nowhere surrounded by total darkness and suddenly this man come towards me and help me up. He was wearing white jubah with a turban, he look damn familiar though as if I saw him before at Masjid An-Nur on a random day doing my prayers. Anyway, summarising the story, the surrounding change to a vision of my everyday life which I know that's in the future. Looking at myself, what I'm doing as the man guided me along the way. Here comes the scary part. I witness my own death! That's right. D-E-A-T-H. At that point, I remember looking at a vision, me cutting my Birthday Cake which I assume it was my 26th Birthday cause it clearly stated on the cake. Gosh! I ask myself, 26? Why so soon? Suddenly, the vision of my life disappear and the man turn to me and say "tunai kan hajat mu dan tunai kan lah perintah Allah S.W.T sebelom terlambat" and he smile. That's when I woke up sweating all over. After that, this thing in my mind keep on haunting, "3 more years". Till today, I say to myself it is just a dream due to me not washing my legs before going to bed. Well, I hope so. Still, I will live my everyday life like it is my last. I blogging bout this not for sympathy, but I hope this thing can be a lesson to learnt for everyone. Minimise the the sins, and do what you are told to do. But hey, I'm not that angelic type or some kind of a HolyMan. I still rebel on certain things. Trying to my best to be a better Muslim. InsyAllah!

Looking at things/people around me now I can see, happy ones, troubled ones, the faking ones and lots more. Well, this is life. Not everything in this world is fill with cotton candies, rainbows, butterflies and everything nice. Surely, you will go through some bad times. So, from where this bad times occurred from? You start to wonder. Is it yourself or is it something that is already written in a book(fate). Fate is a strong word for me. I'm not trying to challenge God's will or something but it is possible that you can change your fate with a strong and sincere heart. With the right effort and the right intention, Insyallah you will achieve it. If things didn't work out, don't give up, always remember this: It's not the end of the world. Tuhan itu maha Adil. As for those trying to save their relationship but didn't work out, Its their lost not yours. Good times will come for the patient ones.

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Happy New Year!! Ok, I know I'm so expired now. Well, better late than never. So guys, I'm back! Done with a new skin, new me(I think so), new ambition, new life and the new goes on and on. No more complaining of me not updating my blog lah tu lah nie lah. You guys must understand my situation orite! I hope 2008 treat me well. Something I need to achieve so badly.

I read this article about my horoscope for 2008. Quite interesting. You want to know what's my plan for this year about how to find that "someone"? Most of my friends didn't agreed on it. Tak supportive langsung! It goes like this:

Anyway, its a good start for my 2008 and I hope the "Good" things will not fade away. Here are some 2008 pictures! Enjoy and see you guys around.